Weekly update 1
Every morning I wake up a different person and it's noticeable to me. Today, I am resolved to move more past my grief and also my anger to fuel some additonal task-tending, including nurturing my aching heart and connecting with my most embodied expression of myself.
I was set to take the boys over to my friends' property to work in the garden for a bit. It's a project that was already in motion, yet the turn of events with the virus make it an act of survival. the rain will delay that, but it will happen. We seem to have time that we never had before.
Do I think it will get so bad that we have to rely on our own farms? Nah, probably not, but I want things to change. I look for us to emerge on the other side of this willing to help one another. Focus on the little folks in our lives -- do business locally - for real.
We stop shopping at the big box stores with everyone and their brother (and 6 degrees of Kevin Bacon) and we go back to mom and pop, or sis and brother's offerings. We return to nature and relish in our outdoor offerings. This is the way Matt and I have chosen to live and this seems to just be a faster track to get there.
I am nervous and scared. I have allergies and am so concerned about touching my face and the phlegm and my grandmother who has a very serious lung condition and also my mother, who was on a respirator for seven days just over a year ago.
This is A LOT to take in. It is okay to be overwhelmed, just don't stay there. Imagine yourself exhaling the tension OUT of your body. Visualize it floating away and melting into nothingness. There is no need to try and control what is happening. It will just bring you strife.
Be sure to take a moment every day to sit in your breath. Invite in on your inhale anything you need more of right now. Exhale and release, really imagine it happening - your sorrow, anger, regret, and shame. Allow each inhale to go deeper into your belly that the last. I like to place my right hand on hand on my chest (heart) and my left on my gut to send healing energies and thoughts and to track my breath.
Allow yourself to be still and stay in this place as long as it feels comfortable to you.
There is an audio of this meditation here, if you would like to use it. Please let me know your thoughts about it as I feel led to share portions of my journey through this life, while we're here.
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